My little e-friend, Savannah lost her battle with cancer today. I am full of mixed feelings. My real me is devastated and my nurse me is relieved that she is free from pain at last.
I was having a full on pity party for one before I got this news. My daughter had me at the edge of sanity and ready to jump. I was fixing to knit her a dunce cap and cement her firmly in the corner for the rest of the day and possibly her life. I know my mother cursed me as a child. I was a real turd and she would say "someday you will be blessed with a little girl to drive you nuts too." How right she was.
My child has a way about her where she just glows with fabulousness and then transforms with a blink of an eye into a mini-devil. Unreal. Today she was as sweet as apple pie asking me if she could go to the park, *eye bats*, and hugging on me and kissing on me. Oh, of course dear child, for who can resist such wiles?
Well, I am dealing with some medical woes myself and had an appointment today so I told her after we go to mommy's doctor we can go play at the park. As medical things go, it took way longer than expected and Flynn had the ole droop eye going on in a bad way. I told her we could go after he had a nap. Oh holy hell, the fury let loose. The steam began rising and shooting out "it's" ears, and laser beam stink eye nearly knocked my on my keester. "It" fell on the ground and writhed while screeching in banshee wails. "it's" face turned beet red and I could see "it's" blood pressure rising. "It" being my formerly sweet Princess Sophie.
Um, as if? I know I was a handful but I am quite certain I was never like this. I am pretty sure I am working off Darrell's bad Karma as well. NO FAIR!!!! A double dose.
So I was about to strangle her and feeling REALLY sorry for myself when I heard the news of Savannah. I saw her sweet picture on my computer screen and just starting bawling and sobbing. I saw the smile that has brightened my world from across the country for a year now and knew I would see no new pictures of it again. The anguish and sorrow I feel for her mommy and daddy is almost more than I can bear. My Sophie heard me and came in and pat my head and kissed me. She said "It is going to be alright mommy. Savannah is with Jesus now." Gone is mini-devil. My sweet angel is back again. I totally and completely love this kid even when she drives me nuts.
Rest in Peace my lovely Savannah. I will pray and pray for your mommy and daddy and Big Daddy. We will miss you Beautiful.
I was having a full on pity party for one before I got this news. My daughter had me at the edge of sanity and ready to jump. I was fixing to knit her a dunce cap and cement her firmly in the corner for the rest of the day and possibly her life. I know my mother cursed me as a child. I was a real turd and she would say "someday you will be blessed with a little girl to drive you nuts too." How right she was.
My child has a way about her where she just glows with fabulousness and then transforms with a blink of an eye into a mini-devil. Unreal. Today she was as sweet as apple pie asking me if she could go to the park, *eye bats*, and hugging on me and kissing on me. Oh, of course dear child, for who can resist such wiles?
Well, I am dealing with some medical woes myself and had an appointment today so I told her after we go to mommy's doctor we can go play at the park. As medical things go, it took way longer than expected and Flynn had the ole droop eye going on in a bad way. I told her we could go after he had a nap. Oh holy hell, the fury let loose. The steam began rising and shooting out "it's" ears, and laser beam stink eye nearly knocked my on my keester. "It" fell on the ground and writhed while screeching in banshee wails. "it's" face turned beet red and I could see "it's" blood pressure rising. "It" being my formerly sweet Princess Sophie.
Um, as if? I know I was a handful but I am quite certain I was never like this. I am pretty sure I am working off Darrell's bad Karma as well. NO FAIR!!!! A double dose.
So I was about to strangle her and feeling REALLY sorry for myself when I heard the news of Savannah. I saw her sweet picture on my computer screen and just starting bawling and sobbing. I saw the smile that has brightened my world from across the country for a year now and knew I would see no new pictures of it again. The anguish and sorrow I feel for her mommy and daddy is almost more than I can bear. My Sophie heard me and came in and pat my head and kissed me. She said "It is going to be alright mommy. Savannah is with Jesus now." Gone is mini-devil. My sweet angel is back again. I totally and completely love this kid even when she drives me nuts.
Rest in Peace my lovely Savannah. I will pray and pray for your mommy and daddy and Big Daddy. We will miss you Beautiful.
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